Paths

Sometimes I would like to stop and wonder if I'm on the right path. The path called life.

Am I in the right job? A job that is most suitable for me, a job that I am most passionate for? Had I been selected by the Aerospace company that I interviewed for, things would have been different. Had I been selected by any of the other companies that I applied to, things wouldn't have been the same.

Or am I even in the right field? Had I switched to accountancy when I enrolled in university, I would be leading an entirely different lifestyle. Even my personality could have changed, I would say. What about Biological Engineering that I'd chosen as first choice after the 2nd year streaming? Things would again turn out to be different.

There are so many choices that we have to make in life that sometimes I wonder if I am doing OK. Life isn't a course or a module. Nobody would be there to guide and grade you, giving you A's or B's whe you are doing OK and C's and D's when you are not. How do I know if I am doing fine? Sometimes I even wonder if I've gotten into a right relationship. What if... what if... what if...

The life that God has given me has not been dramatically exciting, neither has it been mundanely boring. The Lord has given me my fair share of ups and downs. There have been genuine sadness and happiness, sorrow and joy, disappointments and fulfilment, which slowly shaped me into who I am and where I am now.

Thinking through all the 'What Ifs', I wouldn't say that I am exceling in life. I can't even tell if the choices I made are paths that God wants me to take. All I can say for now is, I seriously can't imagine myself being in a field other than the one I'm in and I can't also imagine myself being glad and satisfied in any job other than the one I'm deeply mired in.
Most importantly, I definitely cannot see myself in any other relationships other than the one that I am holding tightly onto. =)